The last time talking with Will in class, he mentioned the word “existentialism”. I found it to be a great starting point for my exploration in my thesis project.
My question about life is always “why do we exist?” The inevitable decay of life frustrate and confuse me, and I have no way getting out of it.
Through this mindmap exploration, I realized I really want to do something related to the “reactivity”(another way of interpreting decay) of substances. This reminds me of the explosive reactivity I’ve witnessed in some of the chemistry experiments back in undergraduate and high school. Looking into those, and revisit thermodynamics are going to be my first step.
我希望自己不是只在象牙塔裡面，不停的說著自己對於衰弱與逝去的恐懼。因此我對於這麼抽象的mindmap, 感到非常擔心。我希望不論是我的作品、或是我的研究，是對外界有所幫助的，我想這是我一直思考著「功能性」的原因。
或許功能是連結藝術與科學界？但這件事早已發生許久了，因此我必須要有更明確的目標。
第一件事，是我要先炸一些東西。我其實不懂為什麼我對炸東西這件事有這麼強的執念。我總覺得我所有的實驗都要開始於在水裡炸鹼金屬這件事（庫倫爆炸！）剛知道始祖鳥炸山事件時我有些失望，覺得這件事已經有人做過了，好煩。但實際上炸煙火與炸金屬這兩件事非常非常的不同，只有炸的部分相同而已。我想做的是水中的爆炸。庫倫爆炸：大量正電荷解離在水中並且互相排斥。
如何一句話描述我想做的thesis不簡單。我想要能夠去使用一些最基礎的元素，去探究他們的反應性和逝去。
Using fundamental chemical elements as art medium, explore their reactivity and decay through the lens of thermodynamics, and reflect back to the decay of our own kind.